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Hey, I have a question, little flist.
I'm not trying to be deep or introspective or wordy in any way, it was just something that crossed my mind last night; and I realized that I didn't know the answer, and hard as I tried it was hard to really force myself to pick one.

This is a personal question, from YOUR point of view. So no answers like "it varies from person to person!" or "that's an inconsistent thing." You, right NOW.

Which do you think is closer to 'happiness' for you? Or which would be the main factor in getting there, will help you find it, in your mind?

Is it being satisfied at your accomplishments, achievements, being self-sufficient? i.e. graduating from a good school, attending college, getting your dream job and being good at it.

Or is it feeling comfortable and cared for? Finding someone who can love you and appreciate you, and/or good friends, who will be by your side and support you through life. Putting thing more like 'family' and 'marriage' over a 'ideal career' and 'good schooling'.

I don't know, teenagerdom feels a lot like it's everyone trying to get to an end goal what with how everyone tries to hard to pass high school and to slide into college. But then I wonder if that's really honestly because it would make them happy to be accomplished (and go through hell to get there) or because it's obligatory with no questions asked.

Greetings, LJ!

First off, I want to talk about a movie I watched recently... just 'cuz. It was pretty interesting. I'd been wanting to see it since it first came out, but the opportunity never really arose; my friend Kirri had it on her computer so we watched it at her house.

A Scanner Darkly

It's set in Orange County 7 years into the future. A new drug called 'Substance D' (or just 'D') is a current epidemic. "There is no quitting. You're either on D, or you've never tried it." It's a mind-altering drug with devastating effects if used too often, and so the government-- after losing this war on drugs-- takes to intense surveillance and undercover agents to try and stop the bigger drug-pushers. Bob Arctor is assigned to enter the drug scene (anonymous to his coworkers, who only know him a 'Fred') and infiltrate.
He becomes an addict. It's a bit hard to follow, and confusing-- a lot of the plot flows along subtly, and you pretty much have to pay close attention to every conversation or else the plot... isn't really there. Things aren't obvious!

It's filmed and then animated in a process called 'Rotoshopping'.



EH, I DUNNO. Nobody knows about this movie so I wanted to tip people off about it. I'd consider it good! Not for everybody, but I really really enjoyed it.

Everybody's doing it I just wanted to be cool.

( That one meme where you fill out shit that Prince and Akichi and etc have done )

I hope that was enlightening...

SLOTHS!

Good evening ladies!

So, I called AT&T yesterday, but apparently their system was down. So I called back every few hours, a total of about 6 times... nothin', so I called back today.
Only to discover everything is working perfectly, just that for some reason my IP address is all screwy, as in, it isn't picking it up from the 2WIRE but from out router. So the guy more or less ambles with me on the phone for an hour trying to say I have a virus perhaps. Then the phone line cut, and I just went "AUGH FUCK ALL THIS SHIT!" and went to mess around with cords, refresh the IP address, and presto, it works.

While my net was down I messed with photoshop~


( full-size lineart & colored pic below the cut, as well as Nuts sketches and othersuch fff furry furry )

SORRY TO ALWAYS ARTSPAM! But I needed to make an 'I'm back!' post anyhow. I wonder if I should post the box animal/Nuts doodles on the Reborn comm... hnnn

...also, I'm going to make refs for all my human characters soon. Augh but I have like 20 so it'll take forever.

I'm really interested in this meme~ please?

IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my flist, so let me know with whom I'm friends!



( questions behind the cut! )

AOI HANA IS GETTING AN ANIME




AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH HOLY SHIT ldsadksa;f I actually read a big chunk of this so long ago, so I hardly remember it but slkafklsa; IT LOOKS SO NICE from the preview little images!
Cute shoujo-ai! Filled with girls that don't have giant tits or obnoxious colored hair in obnoxious lengths! And lots of sad things and cute things.... some drama but not unrealistic drama... FFFFFFFF I can't wait, cannot waaaaaiiiit.

ART POST

I like using big font to say that I am unsure why. I also want to do a post on Up (amazing movie holy shit) & my glasses when I get them, but that's not until tomorrow (hopefully!)
I've posted a lot of this on plurk by now, and DA/FA, but there are a couple new things, older things, etc. I just haven't done an art post here in so long, I like dumping big piles of crap I've drawn and colored and sketched. Makes me feel like I'm less lazy, if I'm drawing so damn much.

( Send me you on Saturday, on Thursday~ )

/end of post.

Over my break without internet I did a few things.... which I will make an entry on later, after I scan a few pages of the Streetart Sketchbook which I bought, among other things~ that needs it's own entry, this is mostly just for my own reference....

We got One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest to read for class, and it is such an amazing book, sweet God... it's so GOOD. I read it in three days. I haven't seen the movie yet but we'll probably watch it in class some time.
So I wanted to keep some quotes from it, since we'll be giving the book back some time and... whenever I read a book, there's always these passages that I really love, and then I wish I could've kept them in mind or at least wrote them down or the page numbers. Either what it's getting across or the diction in it or whatever else. Feel free to breeze past this, it's just some quotations from Cuckoo's Nest.

( rabbits sans whambam )

see ya later cats

WAAAAH TAGGED BY pixystik

( that one character meme thing that is going around )

Art Pooost

It's been enough time to merit doing another one. Just a few tiny paintings, and some PS stuff too.

( of doeskin and petals~ )

I need to scan s'more things actually but lol this is it for now. I've been in a real bad art block lately, actually... which was where that big animal thing came up; I was like, shit, I don't know what to draw. So I just drew a bunch of doofy animals.

That's how I fix things.

Guys, I... have a secret to confess.

8059 is my OTP. It has been. For... For a long time now. I'm sorry, Prince... I just hate 5927 so much.

PRINCE HAS BEEN BANNED FROM THIS ACCOUNT.

NO

NO PRINCESS

PRINCESS I LOVE YOU DON'T DO THIS.

SOB

I love you too sweet pea you horrible naughty girl you

I DO.

puppy puppy puppy puppy puppy




Puppyyyyyyyyyyy

He's getting real big real fast. Look at him, look at that face. He has so many little wrinklies all over it as;dksl;fs and these tiny beady eyes. THAT IS PUPPY. I just call him puppy, really, Tom named him Boy but I feel real stupid going BOY BOY BOY BOY BOY, so I just go puppy puppy puppy. He's getting better about a lot of things; and by God, he loves everybody, including the cats. Cats don't really like him, however. But he's always wanting to play with them. And he gets real, real excited when meeting new people. Sometimes he has to go in his crate because he gets too 'dklsadjk;fkal;!!!!' crazy all over the place. But he's lovable! We run around outside. My camera ain't no good and I'm that much less a cameraman, but I like logging in pointless little videos of him running about, just 'cuz I think it's a good thing to have~

http://es.tinypic.com/player.php?v=2hqeyc4&s=5

c:

HOWS ABOUT YOU GUYS DO THIS?
mostly, I am curious for people's first impressions of me. I feel like I come off as boring or trivial, or something, when people first meet me on the internet. Or you know, not much to note about. So I'd like to hear it~

01. one word to describe me:
02. your first impression of me:
03. nicknames you would give me and call me:
04. something you always wanted to tell me/ask me:
05. would you repost this on your journal so i can fill it out for you?



In other news that everybody knows: I am really enjoying Black Butler/Kuroshitsuji. And this is my favorite icon of it so far. And I need to quickly log some art in here some time soon.

( some sort of anime stereotype meme )

so I am either the girl-with-glasses, or the Dumb Guy.
I AM OKAY WITH ONE OF THESE but I do not want to be the Yamamoto of the group! NNNNO. NO.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Low
Avoidant Disorder:	Low
Dependent Disorder:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

everyone was doing it I just wanted to be cool

Prince I get the feeling our results are like the same.

S-S-S-S-SKETCHPOST again. Is this all I do? Yes. Yes it is.

Actually I have more but I'm too lazy to scan and I lost my second sketchbook oops. It just had some human character designs in it tho and I didn't like how they came out anyway B[

when do I ever like what I draw anyway onto the posty post post, most of these were already on either twitter or plurk, but I mean its SO MUCH EASIER to just swim through my 'art post'/whatever I tag these, tags then swimming through over 9000 plurks/twitters

I'm also going to ramble a lot to myself you can pretend not to notice.

I ain't fishing for compliments, I know I'm a sloppy artist... but comments are always so nice on these as I have no confidence in what I do.

( towards the frolicking beasts we go )


c: okaaay that sums it up~ my apologies for wasting time

PUPPY IS HERE

Okay so I was really uneasy about us getting this little guy, and truthfully, I still am a little worrisome. But at the same time it might be very good for all of us... to have a little goal, and offer a bit of a distraction. And if people every yell while puppy is here I get to be the law enforcer. He's only 12 weeks(?), and is a little itty bitty Pit Bull puppy, chocolate brown! He doesn't have a name yet, we're still considering one c: Tom however wants to name him Bully and I'm like B( original.

He's a sweetheart, though. Whimpers like a baby all the time but is hopelessly attention-craving. He constantly squirmles to get into your lap!

Tinypic is a faggot and doesn't like to embed, but here's a rushed little video of the pup.
http://tinypic.com/player.php?v=2jfll3k&s=5

He's asleep right now c: Little buddy is all tired out from the ride. We can't take him out much since he doesn't have his shots yet, but once he does, we're taking him out on little puppy-dates at a nearby school to socialize him. Which I'm going to be on mom's ass about, seeing as little brudda is a pit.

I'll keep trying to take pics of him while he's still a baby!